Okay. This right now, this is my first ever podcast episode. I am starting before I'm [00:01:00] ready. Okay? I have Literally dreamed about having a podcast for years way, way, way before I actually decided to become a coach.
And then it's like, oh, I'm a coach. Great. Now I can have a podcast . And it's taken me almost 3 years to actually record this episode. The other day, I was looking back through podcast stuff that I had on Google Drive, and I found 5 episodes I had recorded 3 years ago in, February 20 21.
I found 3 more that I had in draft and others I'd, written out what I was gonna put in them. And I hadn't started, and I was thinking, imagine if I had. Imagine if back then, I hadn't let fear. I hadn't let self doubt get in the way, and I had actually just published them to the world. This might have been my hundred and fiftieth episode, But it is my first, and I'm not letting myself dwell on the fact that this isn't my hundred and [00:02:00] fiftieth. This is my very first episode, and you're hearing it. And there are so many reasons even today, even going through this process, I was like, no. I'm not ready. My brain has been coming in with all these excuses.
There's something that you wanna do, something big and scary that you wanna create, that you wanna put out in the world. See if any of these resonate with you. My brain was like, oh, but you don't have a podcast mic. You don't look like a podcaster. You've just got this if you're watching on video, I've got, like, a headset mic that I use for coaching.
So, yes, the sound's good, but it's like, you don't have a podcast mic. So you need to get podcast mic before you can actually record a podcast. Like, no. I don't. Well, you were gonna move the desk more by the window, and you were gonna put some, prints on the wall and have this cool background, and it's just a boring background with some plants.
It's like, Who cares? Well, you're getting your hair done tomorrow. And my brain's like, why don't you just wait until you've had your hair done and then record it? I was like, no.
It was also offering me so we are at the moment. I'm night weaning our 15 month old, my son Flynn. And [00:03:00] sleep's been a little bit broken. I've been a little bit tired.
I've also coming out the back of post viral fatigue, it's like, Yeah. Do you know what? You could wait until next week, then you'll be feeling better. You'll have this nice background. Your hair will all be done.
It's like the perfect conditions to start. Right? Exactly what my brain was offering me. What I now know it was probably doing this 3 years ago. Right?
But what I now know is that these are excuses that my brain will offer. Your brain is probably doing it as well. And if it's if it's doing it, that's okay. Right? We have a human brain that offers us Thousands and thousands of thoughts every single day.
A lot of them are negative and fear based. It's making sense of the world, Trying to keep us safe. It's like, oh, don't put yourself out there because someone might judge you. Someone might Say your podcast is stupid. Someone might say it's boring.
Someone might not like the look of you. Don't put yourself on camera. Why would you wanna upload a podcast to YouTube? Just do audio only. Sit in your pajamas like no 1 will know.
It's giving me all these [00:04:00] thoughts, and your brain's probably giving you all these thoughts as well of, like, just put it off. Now is not the right time. There's not enough time. I'm not feeling like it. All of these excuses, what sits underneath these is fear.
Because our brain is scared of change. Our brain is scared of us putting ourselves out into the world, showing up in a bigger way, Scared of failing. What will other people think? Scared of being separated from this tribe. You know, we're used to existing in tribes, and we've evolve that way.
Our brain has evolved that way. So anything that separates us, like, oh, other people watching us and us being separate, Someone could comment. Someone could judge. Like, it feels so, so scary to our brain, and it's not a problem. Feeling that fear and doing it anyway.
, fear doesn't have to mean stop. Years ago, fear meant stop. My very first half marathon I ever entered after uni. Like, signed up with it for friends. Like, yeah.
I could. I've done a bit of running. Totally gonna do this half marathon. And [00:05:00] didn't really train that much. And then the night before, he was like, oh, how are you feeling for the marathon?
Uh the half marathon. I was like, I'm actually not gonna do it. And I felt sick, physically sick to my stomach. I was so scared that I wasn't gonna be able to do it. Well, I didn't do it anyway.
we do this. We're so scared of failing that we don't even try, and therefore, we kinda fail ahead of time. And this is what I've done over the last 3 years with this podcast. , looking at really made me feel a bit sad almost seeing this idea that I had, this, dream that I had to share some of this work, to share some of these tools with others, to help them, to just get this workout into the world and help people do scary things that I was too scared to do that
now I'm in a place where I'm so compelled to share this. I have so many things that I wanna share with you guys that That is worth it to overcome all of this self doubt and all of this fear that I'm feeling. Even now, my brain's like, You're being too chatty. You're probably saying um and like a lot. You're pausing too much.
[00:06:00] You're thinking. You're I don't know. It's going on with all these things. My cheeks are literally so red right now. But anyway, this is what's real for me.
And I was also it's like, you're gonna look back on this first episode, and you're gonna be so embarrassed. Like, when I was listening to these episodes I recorded 3 years ago, these 5 episodes, Listening back like, oh my goodness. It doesn't sound like me. I'm trying to be something I'm not. Whereas now I'm a little bit more sure of, who I am and, what I wanna talk about.
Even though my brain's saying, you're gonna look back. It's gonna be cringey. This is gonna be so embarrassing. But do you know what? We start somewhere.
Right? This will always be my very first podcast episode. And you know what I say? I'm like, I can't believe this is it. I'm actually doing this, And I'm actually gonna publish it.
And you're probably listening to it. You're on this journey with me. Right? What is it for you? What is that thing?
What is that scary dream? The 1 that , keeps giving you I think of it as, like, whispers. It's like Or you [00:07:00] see something or you see someone else doing it and you feel a bit of an ache, like a tug, like, uh, I wanna do that. Like, uh, I could do that too. What is that for you?
Even take a moment now.
Pause this podcast. Close your eyes, listen to your body and be like, what is that thing? That thing that just lights you up, that makes you go, yes. That desire to create, to do something, to put something in the world that wasn't there before, to show up in a bigger, bolder, scarier way.
, what is that for you? Check-in with that now, and you probably feel a mix of you know it is the right thing. You know you are compelled to do it. Oh, there's the fear there as well. That is totally, totally normal.
So what is that thing? And then just start. What is 1 thing you can do today? 1 action. Can you reach out to someone?
Can you research something? Can you Just write it down, like, grab oh, I don't have any post it notes here, but oh, actually, I do. Here. This is my scary goal. By 30 first of December, I'll have [00:08:00] launched my podcast.
We're in February now. Like, here we go. I know I'll have done it because there will be 30 episodes available to download. Now I put 30 episodes, so it wasn't, like, 20 eighth of December. I'm launching the first 1.
I was like, no. I'm gonna have 30 by the end of this year. And here's the first 1. So what is that for you? Right?
What is that Goal. Write it down. Be really specific with it. Have it somewhere that you can, keep it in your mind's eye because it helps your brain remember it and think about it. And what is 1 thing that you're going to do today?
Okay? So it's not just having this idea, letting it be there, dreaming about it. yes. That's all good, but it's taking action towards it. It's what is that 1 thing that's gonna move you forward, that's going to be starting.
And once you start, the amazing thing is, you overcome the self doubt, you overcome the fear, you have the courage to start. It's so much easier to keep going and do the next thing and do the next thing. Starting is a hundred percent the hardest part because you go from it being this [00:09:00] idea to actually moving into action, to starting to become that person who is going to create this thing, this scary goal that you want to create. You're Stepping into this what this almost like new identity. Right?
So what is that what action you're gonna take? Go and do that. So whatever you do today no longer putting off these scary goals. Okay? That whatever that dream is, Today is the day that you start, so go and take action today.
