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Hi, and welcome to the Scary Girls Club podcast. I'm your host, Hazel Robertson, and today I'm trying something a little bit different, but it's going [00:01:00] along with the theme of bringing you behind the scenes of my scary goal of what I'm creating. And I thought I would give just like a little bit of an update and almost.
I think what I'm imagining for this podcast episode is I'm gonna film it in a few chunks over today as I am going through a process of creating, and I wanna talk you through what's felt like it's shifted, what's felt like it's unlocked, and like some of the things I've been doing and thinking and just bringing you a little bit behind the scenes and then talk you through some stuff.
And then I'm gonna go wait and go and do some stuff and then I'll come back and chat about it. Um. So yeah, we'll see if that works. But I'm just playing and just seeing how it all goes. So today has felt like sometimes like, I don't know if you ever find this, like when I work two consecutive days, like the second day, almost always, [00:02:00] I'm just like, not always, but almost always way more like in the flow.
It's almost like my brain has been doing. My first day, so like I, I split my week and I'm looking after my son for a few days a week and then working a few days a week, and I have two of my working days are, are back to back, and on the first day I'm al it's like that transition from. Being in mum mode and like organizing someone else and like making sure we have enough snacks when we leave the house and enough layers and it's spare pairs of clothes and gloves and all of that kinda stuff and thinking about the day or whatever that is.
And then I'm into like coach, business owner mode and thinking about like my clients and doing that and, and it like the first day of that transition, sometimes I'm just like, whoa, what was going on? And I especially at the moment, like sometimes I'll check in on stuff earlier in the week or like maybe do a little bit in the evening, but I [00:03:00] am, what am I like now pregnancy wise?
Thir almost 34 weeks pregnant. I am tired in the evenings moment, so I have like especially chasing a three year-old around and a dog and just all of the stuff with that and all of the logistics of that, which sometimes I can find a bit tiring as well, so that by the time it gets to evening. I'm tired and I'm sometimes in bed at like seven, eight, or even just like lying in bed, like decompressing, doing meditation, visualization and like getting ready to like go to sleep.
Sometimes I last a little bit longer till maybe I can make it till 10. Last night I think I made it till 10, and so I'm not having as much of that like. Evening checking in on stuff like getting into the headspace of it, like before my actual working day. So I find like yesterday it was kinda like, okay, cool, back in work mode, here we go.
And so many like [00:04:00] ba basically I'm doing this. I had been, I'd spoken about it on a previous podcast. This in-person training, how to bend time, like a workshop on that. And the plan was to do it this Friday at midday. And then I realized, oh wait, we are getting our bathroom, like not our bathroom redone, but like.
When we bought the house, it didn't have a bath in one of like one of the bathrooms and we wanted to put in a bath. So that is, that has been the plan then for this week. So when I decided and planned I was gonna do this training and then this live in-person training, and then this week it's like, oh wait, literally right by the office, or even if you're upstairs, if I worked in like, like my son's room or something.
You'd be above that bath. I think you'd still like hear all the noise. It's like I can't really do a live when there's like [00:05:00] drilling and pipe work and banging and circular saws or whatever has like been going on. So I have switched it. Basically like came into work mode yesterday, went out to a coffee shop to go.
Luckily I caught it and was like, right, I'm going out to a coffee shop just to. Like map out and I got like my piece, I just like a piece of paper out. I had like all my bits, like sometimes what I'll do is I'll add notes as I think about it. I'll just like block out a chunk of time on the day that I'm working and then I'll just.
As I think of like, oh, I think I wanna be focusing on some of these things, I'll just chuck it in that like block of time. And then in the morning, ideally I would do it the night before or the day before, but it doesn't always work and it's not always worked with energy levels. So in the morning I was like, right, go to a coffee shop, have a lovely coffee brought to me, be with people.
There's like fairy lights around and just like have an hour or so and just like get a blank sheet of paper and [00:06:00] do a mind map of like, okay, what are the different bits for the rest of the few days? What's important? Where am I mapping out some of these things I wanna be doing? What am I not doing? What can I push to like next week or in a few weeks or just like go of at all.
So that was really helpful and I was going through and like feeling in a really good place and like doing a bunch of stuff and then was like looking ahead, like, right, right. Okay, cool. The, the training and realized, I was like, oh, this is not gonna work to do this live training this week. So I basically.
I emailed everyone yesterday to say thank you so much for signing up. I'm expecting to do this live in-person training. I'm actually gonna send you a prerecording because then it means I can like doing it asynchronously. I don't have to make sure that there's not like banging and drilling going on at midday and Friday when I was looking to do it.
Instead, I can. [00:07:00] Like record the content that I was gonna do anyway, the training, I won't have the interaction back and forth, which is always really fun. So I'm gonna miss that. But it's better than being like, sorry guys. All you can hear is like, not me chatting, but like bagging away in the background. So even like that, that was, that was yesterday and just being like.
Having to be so kind with myself and not be like, I'm not, the old stories coming up of like, I'm not organized. I missed this. I like, I'm not delivering on something I said I would. And then it's like, no, I was able to let it go and, and here are some of the things I did. It was like when I was in that place of like.
Deciding what to do. All of the judgments were coming up and I could tell that it had stopped, like it was so fun planning and so fun doing the things that I was doing in the morning, like in the coffee shop. And then it stopped being fun and it started feeling [00:08:00] heavy. And I had this like, I think it was guilt that was just sitting there of like, I've let these people down, they wanted to show up at a certain time and now I'm changing it at the last minute.
And like all of that, like heaviness was there. I was like, it is time to step away. Stepped away, processed it through, came back to like, got home, had a cup of tea. I think I had a little hot chocolate actually. It was really nice, like hot cacao, like cacao and oat milk. So good. I, I sometimes add like honey, and I've spoken about this before, the podcast, honey and cinnamon and cayenne pepper.
But actually yesterday I just had literally just. Oat milk and cacao and it was, I think, 'cause oat milk so sweet. It was like really sweet and tasty. It was really nice. Anyway, I'm gonna have a sip petite speaking of hot drinks. So I managed to step away and process through the feelings and go, okay, you're still delivering like this amazing training that you're, that you've planned and that you've [00:09:00] been talking about.
Like you're, they're still gonna get the training just like as they would get the replay after. It's just not gonna be. At the exact time that they were gonna be turning up and like, that's okay. And actually then I was thinking about, it was like, well it works better for me obviously because I'm not having to worry about what noise is gonna be going on in the house 'cause we're having all this building work done or trying to like find somewhere else to do it and fit it in around other calls that I've got.
I was like, no. And. Then it was like, actually it's more useful in some ways there. Like I love attending trainings and like going on workshops live. Like there's something so powerful about being there and you get to interact and ask any questions. And I love all that. This week was not the week and, and I was like, rather than pushing it back another week and like maybe the bath stuff is delayed and there's more stuff going on next week.
Like who knows what's happening next week? It's like, I'm just gonna do it in a different way. They're still gonna get the amazing value. They can [00:10:00] watch it in their PJs. They can go out for a walk, they can have a cup of hot CAO and listen to it and not have to turn up at a certain time. So I do love the live stuff and I love being there at a certain time.
And also this is a different way I'm doing it. So in, and I guess this is relevant to my scary goal of this tool that I'm creating, which is I. This training is a way for me to explain a little bit more in depth some of these concepts and bring in some of the tools that will be in the actual private podcast tool that I'm creating and just talk about it, like have a forum to be able to kinda walk people through, do some really practical, useful things of bringing something along that they're procrastinating on.
And, and this can still happen with watching it like back. Bringing something along and actually going through a bit of a process to shift that and to feel unstuck and just like, oh, [00:11:00] cool. I know what the next step is. Or suddenly like, here we go. Let's go do this thing and talk a bit more about the tool as well, which I'm almost there on the name.
I'll be there. And I think, so I just wanted to that, I guess that's like where I am at the moment. What I'm doing. And that was like yesterday. What I'm doing this morning is just going back over the plan for the training and then I'm gonna record it. And like even just doing that sending out, because I was like, oh, do I just cancel it?
Do I just move it to next video? Even making that decision, sending out the email being like, the training will come, it's just gonna be prerecorded. That's all. That's good. And. Just like making that decision, sending an email, which felt very scary because I had all of these judgements about like letting people down and like not delivering and all of this like baggage that I managed to kind of clear through and process through just doing that and then [00:12:00] sleeping on it like this morning, like woke up.
I was like, wait, I'm gonna put this in the training as well. I'm gonna put this into, I'm gonna put this into all of these different things. And suddenly it was like. It's almost like the flood gates have opened and there's definitely something like, I'm mindful that I am, I'm creating this kind of in real time as I'm talking about it.
And normally before I've like beavered away and created something and then spoken about it. Whereas I'm, I'm actually talking about it like as I go and what I've realized like from a few years ago, but definitely that I'm applying in this process is. Something that Adam Grant calls strategic procrastination.
So procrastination often we can think of as this bad thing. It's like, oh, I'm delaying something that I know ultimately is gonna make it worse if I delay it. It's like, I can't remember the definition. It's something like vol, it's a [00:13:00] voluntary delay. Something around like it's a voluntary delay that actually.
Like procrastination as we would think about it, of like putting something off that like ultimately, you know, you wanna do, but there's some resistance, some heavy feelings spoken, um, associated with that. We will speak about this in the training and I'll dive all into that anyways, strategic procrastination is knowing that it's like purposefully building in delay and space and knowing that actually when we're have, when we're creating something we've never created before.
Or pulling the different things together or doing something in a different way. It's not different. People have different ways of doing it. Like some people might visualize the whole thing and then blah, and it's all done in a bit for me, I. Like this has been another example of the this process for me.
It's like I have this idea and I like, we'll take it on a walk. I'll visualize it, I'll like imagine it and imagine what it's gonna be [00:14:00] like. And I'll like write some notes and like capture them in my phone notes or in a Google Doc. And then I'll kinda step away, sleep on it, maybe have a week pass and I'll keep adding to it.
Then I'll go back and then it's almost like the ideas and the ways forward come. From the stepping away. So not just from the, okay, I'm going to do this thing now. It's like, okay, I'll think about it for a bit, then I'm gonna step away. And it's like our subconscious mind works away in the background. It knows that this is the thing we're focusing on.
Ideas will come, maybe we'll listen to a podcast and be like, oh, I could apply something like that, but in this way, and we will. Or like something will happen in our life and then we think, huh. I'm gonna talk about that, or I'm gonna mention that, or this is really important. Or for me, even like a client will have coaching on something and go, oh, this definitely wanna make sure this is in the tool that goes on the list.
So like the [00:15:00] process of it, it's not like, have the decision, make the thing. For me, there's the, the idea, the shaping, the crafting, even like the name, like I had a name and I'm like, Hmm, it's not quite right and I know the name will come. I know it will before in the next, in the next few days. I know it will come and then I will share it with you once I have it.
But I know the name's coming. I know it's not quite the name that I'd originally like, thought. I know that it's coming and, and I can always change the name as well. Right? That's like the, the least of it is like whatever it's called, it's the actual content that goes in it. But for me, the crafting and the mapping it out and the this and that, like the designing of it.
It takes more, like takes a few weeks, but it's not like I'm working on it for a few weeks. I'm like doing a little burst of it, stepping away. Then I'm like, Ooh, add this, add this. Then I'm doing a bit more focus on it, stepping away and really like [00:16:00] using the time. So even this morning, just as I was getting set up and I had like all these ideas was like, oh, actually it was as I was dry drying my hair.
That's why it was like not getting up, set up for the day, drying my hair. I didn't have in like a podcast. I wasn't listening to anything. I was just drying my hair just and in the shower as well, just like imagining, was I even imagining the tool? Maybe a little bit, but not really. But I'd obviously been thinking about it and all, all of these ideas were coming.
It was like, oh, this, oh this. And so I was just adding and adding and adding to my phone notes. And then this morning it's like, oh, okay, have to do this. This is the, this is the ways. This is the ways. And so it's almost like. The idea starts, then it gets shaped, then other bits come in, then it evolves, and that process is maybe over a few weeks, but not, it's not like this focused process.
It's just like working way in the background. And then ideas come in, I capture them, and then when I actually will create something, it's almost like I have it all [00:17:00] then and mapped out in my mind, like I can, I can see it. It's like, oh, it's this. And then the actual creating of it is very, very quick. So.
It's like the, it's not even the planning. Like I'm, I guess I am planning in a way, but I'm almost, for me just imagining it, just imagining what it'll be like imagining people using it, imagining me like six years ago being like, oh, wow. Imagine if someone was like, you have to listen to this. It literally will change your life.
And just being like, wow, these tools are so freaking powerful and. It's like, what would I have loved six years ago? Like that's the kind of, I'm like imagining that and then all of the ideas are coming and then the actual creating of it will be very quick. I'm sure also as an A DHD or I do love a little bit of a, a deadline and Matt Leave is a [00:18:00] wonderful deadline for, it's like it will be done, it will be out into the world.
It's not gonna be perfect. It's gonna be amazing and powerful and useful and practical. And. I'm just working on the premise of this is version one. Like I can always, if I'm getting feedback and people are getting stuck or some one tool's maybe not resonating or making sense, I can adjust that. I can do a version two, like, I'm not stuck with this thing.
Like everything can change. This is just the first pass of it and getting it out into the world. So I'm also thinking like that. That's another way that's really helping me not be like, it has to be perfect. It has to be amazing. It's like, I know this stuff. I know this stuff works. I've used it on me, I use it with my clients.
It's just putting it all in one place in a really easy to use format that feels really fun. So everything in the tool is like a little game or a challenge or like, okay, today this is what you're gonna try out. And then you go and try it out and like see how it works. That's what it's gonna be for like a few weeks.
I [00:19:00] think I'm gonna go for 21 days. I was thinking initially 30 then the thought of doing something for 30 days, I was like, for me, that felt almost like quite a lot. Something like 21 days is fun is and like being able to completely shift your relationship with time in 21 days, like that's, that's fast.
And this stuff works really fast as well. And then like once you've done it, you can go in. Do it again. Dip into different tools and be like, Ooh, this one actually really worked for this. And then you have this toolkit there that you can practice and draw on for literally any situation. So good. Anyway, I just like give you a little bit of behind the scenes.
So I am about to record the training that we'll dive into a bit more detail, talk about the tool in a bit more detail, and then actually I'm gonna need a name before I record this training. I.
Okay. A name. Come on, universe. Send me a name. Send me a name. [00:20:00] Name, okay. I'm gonna come up with a name. I'll let you know when I do that, but I'm gonna go record this training and then we can do a little check-in of how that is and how that's all been. But I thought that was helpful. This is just me in progress.
Maybe I could have recorded some yesterday when I was feeling a bit like, ugh. And actually, do you know, I recorded some stuff from last week and then I decided I didn't wanna share it. I was like, oh, I don't really wanna share this, but maybe it is useful. I'm gonna watch it again. It was gonna be a podcast LA last week.
And then just life has been laughing a bit and I recorded it. Never edited it, never post published it. So I do have one ready to go out for today, but recording the training is happening first. Hmm, maybe, maybe some of last week's episode. We'll make it into this edit. We'll see. If you see me, I'll, I'll let you know before it goes in.
So you'll look here at the transition. Anyway, let's just see how this behind the scenes works. It's fun to take you on a journey. Again, [00:21:00] as I mentioned before of like, this is what the whole podcast was about, was me. Going on the way to the scary goal and like everything I was figuring out along the way.
So this is the same. And these are some of the things I figured out yesterday and this morning. So cool, right? I hope No, I don't even need to sign off. This is it for now. I will check back in later on.
Okay, so this is a little update on the behind the scenes, creating this private podcast tool. And I'm trying to think I, the, the bit you would've just listened to. I recorded last week and I had so much energy and was like in the flow and everything. I was just like feeling. Just, I had so much creativity, so much was pouring out of me.
And it's the next week, it's the 11th of December today, and I feel so different. And I guess I was like, just before this, I was actually having like a little cry and just like, which helps. [00:22:00] Um, but it's one of those things I was like, okay, I'm just gonna hop on here and record this because I don't want, like, the whole purpose of doing this kinda behind the scenes thing is not.
To be like, yeah, and everything's great and I just feel amazing all the time. And then things just happen, but actually give, I guess it's just a little bit more of a like real life, real time perspective of all of the thoughts and the feelings coming. And like even today, I am tired, like our dog's got a bit of a sore tummy and she was barking at like half five in the morning.
So I was up, um, and. I guess just like late stage pregnancy, also being quite tired and then having like a bit of a broken sleep and not get back to sleep. And then there's just, there's other things on like lots of like midwife appointments and stuff with that. So there's the whole like having a baby, getting prepared, like birthing a baby, all of that kinda stuff.
Organizing [00:23:00] clothes, hospital bag, like all of that stuff that. Is in progress, but has been taking up, I guess, increasingly more headspace just the last like few days. And like there's kinda stuff going on with that. So I had a midwife appointment this morning and then it's just, it's almost like switching gears to be like, right now I'm in work mode and I'm feeling a bit tired from a really broken sleep and.
Like my head's full of like baby stuff and just like part of me, like if I'm honest, is just questioning like, why did I even say I would do this? Why am I even still working now? Like I should just be finishing up. And I know that that's not true because I know that like the work I do. When I'm feeling like up for it and like processing through anything that's going on, like it gives me so much energy and I love like creating and sharing tools and supporting [00:24:00] my clients.
And then the thought of this like creating something that is in the world and it's like everything that I just wish I had like years ago, even like last year, really, like the stuff that's gone into it. I mean, it's, it's so good. And so I know that I wanna do, like, I'm not like forcing myself to do this, but it's the, yeah, I guess it's just not every day is like full energy, creative pouring out of me and not every day is having, I guess like when I look at, looked at my calendar, but like today and tomorrow it's like cool.
Got like a good chunk of time, like to get a clear run at things. And then of course didn't account for like. Appointments going over and being tired and then having like lunch and being a bit tired, you know, like all of these things. But just, and again, this is coming into the bending timepiece. It's like the window of time that I have for [00:25:00] today to create is less than I had initially thought because sometimes life happens and things change.
And also I am. I'm not like at peak creativity right now. I'm like, wha Yeah. Okay. Like, so like some part of me just wants to go and like lie out and have a nap and I, and I could do that. Like if I really wanted to do, I could go and do that and that's okay. And I'll have an early night for sure. But it's just, yeah.
And I know that the next step. And like this is one of the things that is in that tool. I have a name for it by the way. I'm not gonna say the name quite yet, but because I just wanna like really make sure, but it came to me this morning. I was like sitting in a coffee shop doing some planning actually of like birth and getting organized for what we'll need, like when baby arrives, like all just like logistics and stuff for son and her dog and all of like thinking how that's gonna work.
I was like [00:26:00] writing down like a best case scenario and like visualizing it and then. Also this just like came to me. I was like, oh, perfect. That's the name of it. Great. So I've got the name, which is great.
And I know that the key thing, and this is again one of the things that's in the tool, like one of the key things that I teach my clients through the coaching is before doing anything or like anything where we're wanting to. You know, it's like a meeting. Create something, make an impact, show up in a certain way to shift our energetic state before we do that.
Obviously this podcast a bit different, but the whole thing is to just show it how it is in that moment. But when we're where we are again. Mm-hmm. When we are. Able to then like shift our energetic state, meaning we [00:27:00] shift from like a survival place of just like, oh, everything's really hard, which is where my brain is at and where I'm at.
Like at the moment, everything really feels really hard. I have no idea how I'm gonna do this all. Why did I, why did I even decide to do this, blah blah. Like that is like the narrative going around to shift from that to. Really being clear, like why we wanna do something, feeling lit up by it, feeling energized by it, and like that's the energy we wanna be in to create from.
So I know, and like after I've recorded this little, little real segment, there you go. I mean, it's all real, but this is how I feel right now. So I'm putting it on, on video, on camera, on audio. The next step now is to go and actually shift my energetic state. Get myself to a place where even I've not had the sleep I wanted.
There's a lot of other stuff going on in my head that's like taking up a lot of, has been taking up a lot of my head space to be able to like park that and [00:28:00] come into, okay, this is the window of time I have. Tapping into the highest level of myself and what I'm able to bring and create for that window of time.
And then it becomes very potent. It becomes very concentrated and it's like, okay, I might only have two and a bit hours, but actually what I'm able to create in those two and a half hours is gonna be way more potent than if I didn't do this. And I just tried. In the state that I'm in now. To like push through to force to create something when I'm just like, literally like my head feels like mud and maybe I won't be able to fully shift my state for the next two and a bit hours, in which case I'll take things around and do more of the planning stuff and maybe leave the recording and the filming apart from this little segment till tomorrow and be able to just give myself permission to be like, do you know what?
Like the showing up bit today. Isn't [00:29:00] happening in the way that I would like it to. And that's okay. So what are some of the other bits that I can do that, that I would've done tomorrow and actually moving them to today? That's a bit more like lower energy stuff, but I can still be create, I can still be tapped into like a higher energy state, but like creating from that place.
But I'm not necessarily showing up and. Conveying that 'cause I'm not recording and like in the place I'm at night, I'm not gonna recorded audio for this podcast. But the private podcast, the tool, because anyone listening to it would be like, oh, you'll feel that. Maybe you feel it when you're listening to this now.
Um, so I'm not gonna do that. I know that like when I am recording or. Connecting or coaching or any of these things, like I am very intentional about getting myself into a place where I'm like fully present in, in the flow and everything is just, it almost feels like it's [00:30:00] coming through me rather than like I'm consciously thinking about it.
So. I will attempt to tap into that for the last two and a half hours from today. And if I do, I'll record another little segment and if not, when I'm tapped into it tomorrow, I'll record a segment just so you can see that shift. I mean, you can probably hear it already for the last bit I recorded. Oh my gosh.
And it might be that going in and stepping away and having an app today is what's actually required to set me up for tomorrow. We'll see. Certainly an early night is so. Anyway, I will check back in
either this afternoon or tomorrow, and I'll keep you posted. Bye.
I'm back. Oh my goodness. It is the day after yesterday. It's Friday the 12th and 12th of December and I am like a new human, a new person. So after like [00:31:00] recording a bit of that update and we're just, everything felt, I think when you're tired and there's like lots of emotions to be processed, like I.
Everything just feels really hard. Right. And that's what it felt like yesterday. And I actually ended up, I was processing through some feelings, doing some tapping, doing some breathing, and I was like, I am actually really tired. So I went upstairs and I had a nap. And then I actually just like ended up canceling, a call that I had and just staying in bed and just lying in bed till.
Till dinner time and then getting up and then I was asleep at like eight or just after eight last night and slept through till like seven. Um, well I was up a bit in the night to pee 'cause that's, that's kind of how things were going at the moment and like, well and truly into the third trimester. But it just, just needed a rest, a reset.
[00:32:00] And I, I feel so different this morning and even like waking up this morning. So much more energy and I can still, my brain's still coming in a little bit with like other things I think I'd mentioned yesterday or like the bit you've probably just listened to by the time I've edited this all together was like a, a lot of thoughts around like baby and prep for that and the hospital bag and like sorting.
There's like stuff to sort that's kind of, I've done bits of it but have had to just park because there's been other priorities. Like birthdays, which has been so fun, and getting like a bath fitted and just as well as like all the usual stuff. And there's just been a lot of like other bits on that have needed a bit more of a focus.
And so some of this stuff's been like, we don't need to do this right now. We can do this. Like at this point in time. And it's kind of this point, like I'm like all of the, in my head brain's offering me like, [00:33:00] oh, you need to do this and do this and think about this. It's like. I was lying in bed this morning and I caught it and was just kind of chatted back to my brain and just said to myself, I don't need to be thinking about this.
Now if a, if an idea comes up, I'll capture it and write it down, but just saying to myself, this is not for right now, and knowing that I have space this weekend, I have space in the evenings this weekend, assuming I don't fall asleep at like 8:00 PM. To do some of this sorting, and I did some of it yesterday, even just imagining how things would be, so I've got this big list, I've got lots of notes.
Things are more organized, and I think, and it won't take that long when I actually do it, it's just saying to my brain, this will be done this weekend. It doesn't need to be. I don't need to be thinking about it now. I've got plenty of other amazing things to focus on for my. Working day [00:34:00] to day. And I think even, it's so interesting because, uh, did I tell you I've got the, I've got the name for it.
Maybe I'll say the name. That would be really fun. I'm thinking when I'll actually release, release this podcast episode. Maybe I'll do it next week when I've like actually built the whole thing. Or maybe I'll do this week, we'll see. Um. It's gonna be called playtime. Isn't that so fun? Playtime? I haven't got the, the tagline exact, uh, my phone, oh, it's my pocket of my jacket, which down there, it's like playtime.
What did I call it? Hang on, let me go see. It'd be fun for me to actually practice what it's called. I, I was building the program that I ended up closing down, like last year. Playtime was one of the names and I wanted it to. I was like, that would be so fun. And then what I ended up building wasn't this fun thing that I had hoped.
Like I think I chatted about before the, the group coaching element I absolutely love. Like that was amazing. [00:35:00] But the actual content of what I had built was very. You do this and then you do this, and it just felt a bit heavy. It just wasn't what I wanted. Whereas this that I built is literally so fun.
It's so good. Well, I'm in the pros of the building. Hang on, let me get the name of it. Two seconds. Wait time. So the tagline, I haven't quite. I dunno if it's quite fun enough, but I want it to feel fun because if you're anything like me, like anytime you think about like time probably feels a bit like heavy or time management.
So, oh, and I used to use those words and I just don't anymore because it just fills me with dread and like, it just feels really corporate. Restrictive. It's like I have to manage my time and control and literally what I have like learned and learned so deeply over the last year and a half plus, like since getting completely burned out [00:36:00] is I got burned out because I was trying to force, because I was trying to control because I was just like trying to do all the things rather than actually letting go.
Surrendering. Being more in the present moment, I'm just playing and going with the flow a little bit more, and that feels way more fun and is just so much more playful. So I'm not using the word time management, but even this, um, the tagline Anyway, I'll say it now, it might change, but playtime is what is gonna be called playtime, a 21 day audio adventure to rewire your relationship with time.
I'm not sure if I'm gonna use rewire. It is gonna be rewiring your brain. Like that's what it's doing is like completely shifting how you think and feel and experience time at the moment. And if it has felt like this really heavy thing that you have to control and you're always behind and like however much you do, there's never enough time.
Never enough time feels like this really [00:37:00] heavy thing that's gonna change, but so it is gonna be rewiring your brain like that's what we're doing. But it maybe feels a little bit. Heavy. I dunno. I want it to feel really light and playful, so I might even get, get the words like fun in there. But it's gonna definitely say a 21 day audio adventure to something around shifting, healing, making your relationship with time.
Fun. I don't wanna say make, because again, it's like making, I'm gonna make this, make it happen. It's a bit like forcing. So for me, the words are really important that when. I want it to be like, when I hear this play time, a 21 day audio adventure, I'm like, oh, maybe just keep it that. But I need to say something about time, a 21 day audio adventure.
I'm like, Ooh, that's so fun. I'm like, I wanna go on a 21 day audio adventure and play. I'm play time and like, have everything feel fun and flowy. So I might get the words fun and floy in there. Um, but it's been so [00:38:00] fun 'cause I knew, I knew that like I didn't quite have the name nailed. Even though I actually did like a few weeks ago, I was like, oh, this is what I'm gonna do.
I was like, this isn't it.
And I left it it came to me of, oh, it's called playtime. Like that's exactly what it is. It's play time, making time feel playful. Um, oh, that could be fun.
Making time fun. Making time fun. Anyway, I don't need to be brainstorming my tagline while I am on Zoom with you. You didn't know that. It's Zoom. I actually record podcasts on Zoom at the moment anyway, but anyway, so basically. The moral of the story is moral of the story. The things you can take away are, and I'm sure you know this already, but it's just like, and I know this already, but yesterday is just such an amazing example of that.
When things feel forced and heavy and there's lots of heavy [00:39:00] emotions and it's just like, oh my gosh, I just can't, it's okay to step away, to have a nap, to go for a walk, to do something else, like whatever the thing is, to just know and just trust that when you are feeling in. Like and uplifted and elevated and like the inspiration's flowing.
When you're feeling in that place, everything's just so much easier and it happens so much quicker. So today even, oh, that was it. My brain this morning was like, you only 'cause this is my like third last day before mat leave. I mean, mat leave can be fluid. Like I'm sure if I want to do a day, I can do a bit here and there, but I don't want to be like, I want everything to be wrapped up so I'm not having to work.
Like I want this to be all created and out in the world and my brain's out. You've only got three days left. There's not enough time like it's going to that. And it was just bringing it back of the, the, the key, like the key moments and time is like right now. And even, you know, when I was [00:40:00] having breakfast with my son and it's easy to like, oh, I need to go and like start doing stuff and start recording stuff now it's like, no.
And he's like, come and play. I don't want mommy to go and have a shower. It was like, okay, what if we do five minutes and we had the most amazing five minutes of play and I was so present and it's like five minutes of just focused in like presence doesn't make a big difference. Even though it was later than I was maybe wanting to shower and later than I was wanting to start my day that I'd intended, but actually just pausing and being like, no, this is what's important right now.
I'm just playing with that and then knowing that that, and having that like really amazing time with him this morning after brekky, that's like, I'm gonna carry that then into the rest of my day and carry that with the things when I'm reflecting on the day of like, oh, what were the really nice moments?
It's like we had such a nice brekky and the playing was really fun. It's like those are the moments not having a shower five [00:41:00] minutes earlier or whatever, like whatever it is. So it's just remembering. I guess with this whole thing it's, it's, which I spoke about in a previous episode, it's not about doing the thing and getting the thing done.
It's the whole journey to get there, which is resting, playing, feeling connected, doing the things that light me up 'cause I know that then feeds me and fuels me and that's what's gonna then flow into Playtime 21 day audio adventure. And then you're gonna feel that too when you're listening to it and going through the 21 day audio adventure.
So fun. So anyway, that's where I'm at today and this morning feels good and I'm gonna go and just pray. I've got like a bunch of stuff that I know I wanna create today, and it's just prioritizing that and being like, okay, what are the key things? Let's go. [00:42:00] Shut everything else off. No notifications, no distractions.
I've even deleted like Instagram off my phone for today. Like sometimes I just go through bits of deleting the app. It's like, do you know what? I can go on it later or at the weekend for today. Is staying connected, staying in this like elevated emotional place, staying in. Imagining it being completed and imagining it being done and imagining you listening to it and loving it.
Be like, this is so fun. And staying in that place and then creating. So that is what, that is, what today's plan is. So yeah, I hope you're having an amazing day and either I will send this out or there will be an update and if they're, if I have sent this out, maybe they should just wrap up now just in case, and then I could do another update next week.
Maybe. That's good.
Okay. Well, I hope wherever you're [00:43:00] listening to this, you've enjoyed a little bit of behind the scenes, into the real time workings of my brain, how I've worked through things, how I'm a human and I'm not feeling like amazing high vibe all the time, and yet how I can allow myself and give myself grace to process and to just give my body what it needs and how that then fuels.
The creative process and the creation as well. So I wanna encourage you to do the same. Give yourself permission to really listen to what it's you need and allow, just allow yourself to let go of things. Knowing that you can pick them back up if they even need them at all, or do them in a different way when you are actually feeling like you have all this energy and like so much to give.
And it's so important I think, at this time of year, especially to just stay in that place of. Listening to what it is that we need. Because there can be so much with, you know, I could very easily, and I've done this before, get into [00:44:00] the like, okay, I've got three days left. Like, I need to go, go, go and like get all these things done.
And it's just a, it's not fun and B, it's exhausting. And so many times I've reached a holiday, a break stepping away my mat leave. Like last time I ended up pulling it forward because I was so drained. I was just like, I have to do all these things. I have to deal with these things. And eventually was like.
I'm just gonna have to cancel all my calls a few weeks early and just be like, I'll see you in a few months time. Like I need to, just like, I don't have the capacity for that anymore, but it's being able to make those decisions for yourself and listen to what it is that your body needs and give that to yourself, even if it's not, the timeframe is different than you think or how you thought you would.
Like I'd imagined having two full days yesterday, and today my working days and being like boom, boom, boom, creating so much stuff and then it's done and then this, and that's literally not happened. That did not happen yesterday, and it has not happened maybe so far this morning, but I know that with [00:45:00] focused intention, that's what it, that's what will happen like the rest of today.
And it's just taking those pockets, being able to let go of what. Doesn't actually need to be done or doesn't need to be done right now. Or you maybe said yes to when you had lots of energy and you felt good and things have changed and you're a human. And sometimes we have these days being willing to just say, no, this is what I need right now.
Being willing to let people down. This is what you need. And trusting that and knowing that actually that then is gonna flow into helping you make that bigger impact. Create the stuff you really want to do rather than getting sucked into. All the like stuff that you could be doing. It's like just letting that go.
What is really, really essential, really, really important. A, it's you and your energy and your headspace and what you need. Like that comes first always, because that's how you can then show up and give more. And then B, like what are the [00:46:00] essential things? Like what is really, really important and letting stuff go and stuff can wait, stuff can get parked.
Stuff can wait till next year. Maybe it doesn't even need done at all. What is the really important stuff and how can you do it and like allow yourself to rest. Allow yourself to play and actually enjoy the bits that you're doing, rather than just being like, I have to get this done. It's like tapping into the presence.
Tapping into playing, which play time will I'll be about, and just allowing yourself to enjoy the whole process of it as well. Because there's no like point of arrival like. If, and I know this to be true, if you're push, push, push, go, go, go, go, go before like a holiday and like you, you reach it and you are burned out and exhausted, it's gonna take a while till you're feeling like yourself.
Maybe you're like snapping at people or just a bit like, oh, and everything feels heavy. Like how you are being carries into the holiday as well, or whatever. It's [00:47:00] that you create. So it's really thinking about for the holidays coming up, like how can you. This is kind of funny for me 'cause it's like there's the holidays and there's also my mat leave.
Like both are kind of coinciding. So it's like I'm off for the holidays. I'm not coming back until I have a baby and raise a baby for a bit. And it's like, how can you, how could, like the first, very first day of your holiday, you're not like, oh my God, I'm so drained. But it's like I have so much energy. To be present with the people I love in my life and to be present with myself and to be just loving this time and this time off and creating and whatever like the holidays mean for you, like how could you have that as a focus of like, and it's not about winding down, it's not about like not doing things or checking out.
It's none of that. It's just approaching. The next few weeks or [00:48:00] whatever, like time you have left before you're off with a lightness, with a playfulness, with a checking in, with your body, with giving yourself what you need. Maybe it's some time to yourself, a walk, some yoga, some breathing, and really nice candle.
Look at this. Well, it's what, I was like this for my birthday. It smells freaking amazing. It's so good. Oh, it's just, it's by this brand, the five elements Yogi oils. So nice. So yeah. Anyway, I've got that burning away. But like just creating like, and like a cup of tea, it's like creating nice, cozy space, giving yourself what you need and just enjoying the time.
Now even as you're wrapping things up and you're working and maybe those deadlines is all good, it's like coming into the holidays. Feeling energized and present. I'm just like, you are all topped [00:49:00] up and ready to just ready to go. That's what I'm aiming for is like coming into my mat leave, not like last time being like, I'm so exhausted and I've had to pull it early, uh, pull it forward, but actually being like, oh, here we go, things life's feeling good.
Now we're gonna do some of this and this, and just enjoying like. The time and the moments Anyway, right? I am gonna sign off here. This is probably a really long one already. Back to my edit these bits together. So I'll send this out and then next week's one, maybe it'll be a little update when I've actually created playtime, and then you can go and buy it and listen to it and go on the 21 day audio journey, which would be so fun, so excited, right?
Have an amazing rest of the week, an amazing week ahead. Taking care of yourself, giving yourself space, playing, enjoying it all. And I'll see you next time. Bye.
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